February 2012
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THE WEDDING Pt. 1
Paige did throw the ultimate bachelorette party, Constance, Emma, Annabelle all came to the house. It was very low key, and thank goodness Paige didn’t get any strippers. I don’t think anyone wants to give an 8 month pregnant girl a lap dance anyways.
I wondered off and on what Jared and Shannon were doing. I thought he would text me or call but he...
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“Who is this band you are working with again?” I asked my boyfriend as I stepped over the threshold into our bathroom.
“You probably won’t know them, it’s not your type of music.” he yelled across the house so I could hear him.
Not pressing the issue, I finished getting ready. I finally had a night off from work and I was able to go to the show tonight....
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After a long discussion about when we wanted to get married, we finally decided on the day after tomorrow. It was a little quick for me, but I wanted to be his wife as soon as I could. I was supposed to be on bed rest, but I promised Jared I would take it easy. After finally agreeing with me, him and Shannon headed into town to make some arrangements.
While they were gone, I called my...
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I thought having lunch with Evan would take my mind off of Shannon, but being with him did exactly the opposite. The entire time, Shannon’s words kept replaying in my head.
“Paige, you alright?” he asked, bringing me back to reality from my thoughts. Apparently he had been talking the entire time and I hadn’t heard a word he had said. Realizing I was just wasting his...
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The benefit show was nothing but awkward for me. Every time Evan looked my way I could feel Shannon’s eyes burning a hole through me. I tried not to look at either of them, but when I did make contact with one of them, I shot them a friendly smile. Since Shannon and I had worked things out he’s been a bit over-bearing, the trust that we used to have is gone. When he’s not...
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I had been in the hospital for 4 long, boring, days, the doctor wanted me to stay longer, but I insisted that I wanted to go home. After finally agreeing with me, I was discharged yesterday evening. I was so happy to finally be in my own bed in the comfort of my own house. That night was horrific, but I didn’t need to dwell on it, but not thinking about it was definitely becoming a...
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Jared’s POV
After seeing the blood that surrounded her feet, Jana fell to the floor unconscious. Without hesitation, I rushed over to her, scooping her off of the floor into my arms and headed towards my truck. I had to get her to the hospital and I had to get there fast. I didn’t have time to call 911 or wait on an ambulance to get here, that would take too long.
As I entered...
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The Benefit Show I felt the anticipation building up as Paige and I pulled into the venue. I did as Jared asked and called him when we arrived. He came out almost immediately to greet us. “WOW! You look amazing babe!” he said bringing me into his chest. He had left a bag on the chair in our room with a note attached to it before he left earlier today. The note said, Can’t wait to see...
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Jared’s POV
I knew Jana was going to kill me for not waking her up, but she looked so peaceful I couldn’t bring myself to wake her. She told me yesterday she wanted to come along to the airport to pick up mom and grandma. I had so much stuff that needed to be done today, it was probably best she didn’t come along. Before I left to head to the airport I called Paige to give...
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On the way home from the club, I couldn’t stop thinking about the look on Shannon’s face. When I turned around to look at him just before I exited the door, I could see the pain in his eyes and right now it was killing me. I laid my head back against the headrest and let my mind wonder over the past few days. Maybe I should have answered Shannon’s phone calls, all he...
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I finally had the house all to myself. After Jared went back on tour, my parents stayed with me while Constance visited her mom in Texas. I told them it was unnecessary for them to stay, but I honestly had no choice in the matter. Between Jared and my parents being as persistent as they were it didn’t matter if I wanted them to stay or not. I agreed, thinking it would only be a couple...
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Shannon’s POV
A ton of emotions hit me as I watched Evan lead Paige out of the club. It took everything in me not to run after them and confront Evan, but he was the innocent one in this. He had no idea that I even knew Paige, if he only knew how well I knew her. I had no right to be mad at him in all of this but Paige of all people in that club, how could she pick my drum tech to...
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Friday night could not get here fast enough, I was long over due for a drink. I still haven’t spoken to Shannon since I found out about Maria. When I talked to Jana yesterday she told me their flight would be around noon today, I explained to her that I probably wouldn’t come around for the next few days because I didn’t want to see Shannon.
I knew the exact moment that...
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I sighed as I looked at the clock on the bathroom wall. It’s been exactly 3 hours and 45 minutes since Jana sat me down and told me what was going on with Shannon and his ex while he was away on tour. When she told me the news, it took my breath away. I felt physically sick.
“Oh that’s just great,” I huff as I pick up the empty bottle of Merlot beside the bathtub...
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The evening went surprisingly well with my parents, everything went smooth and was basically perfect. I couldn’t enjoy myself though for the constant reminder that I had to tell them that I could die during the birth of their grandchild.
Constance had excused herself to get ready for bed and Jared was in the shower. Paige stayed at the apartment tonight, she wanted to come visit but...
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Maria POV Pt. 3
These last few weeks I’ve been insanely busy getting things together before the tour. I was thankful to have something so intense occupying my thoughts and keeping them away from him. Shannon was nowhere to be found spending most of his time with his new “girlfriend” Paige. We had sex like wild bunny rabbits the morning of her birthday and the entire week prior to when...
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I opened my eyes to see his beautiful face, relaxed, asleep next to me. I closed my eyes and reopened them to see he was still there, I thought I was dreaming. Even though I had been so rude to him earlier, he still held me so close to him. I thought to myself as I watched him sleep, how I needed to put myself in his position. What if I was on the other side of the world and he called me...
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I heard voices around me, as I slowly lifted my eyes, I seen Constance and Paige sitting in the corner of the room. Sitting up, I noticed I was in a hospital bed. In an instant reaction I felt of my stomach to check on the baby, everything seemed to be okay. They both jumped up and ran over to me, wrapping their arms around me. They both sat at the foot of the bed and Constance explained to...
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I was not going to be the needy pregnant girlfriend, not over Jared. Although I thought he’d be able to come see me after Shannon made it back from his quick visit with Paige, he quickly assured me he couldn’t get away. His schedule was booked up until the day the tour ended and that was another 3 weeks. I couldn’t deny I missed him, I thought about him every second of every day, but I needed...
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The guys had been on tour for over 2 weeks and I had talked to Shannon everyday since he has been gone. We either skyped or called/texted at least once a day. I haven’t heard from him in the past 2 days though and I was trying my best to shrug it off that he hasn’t had time to call since he’s been so busy. I woke up this morning to a slight fever and a stuffy nose so I spent most...
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I was so excited to share with Jared the news of the sex of our baby. I hope he was just as excited. He was still at his meeting, he texted me on my way home from the doctor’s office, and told me he was going to be another couple of hours making it home. That gave me the perfect idea. I stopped by a small specialty shop outside of town and got the most gorgeous stationary set and had...
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The constant crying had my nerves in a frenzy. I think the woman sitting across from me, ignoring her children, would be slightly offended if she knew the things I was thinking about her. She was sitting there on her cell phone while one kid destroyed the doctor’s office and the other was crying nonstop wanting her attention. In that moment I was glad Jared couldn’t come to my...
January 2012
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Shannon’s POV
After I watched the beautiful girl crawl in my bed I couldn’t get Wayne out of the door fast enough. I was really excited to see my old friend, but Paige really got me excited in that lingerie. I knew something was bothering her tonight, but I couldn’t put my finger on it, now I knew. After Wayne and I both said our goodbye’s, I locked the door behind...
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Early Friday morning the sound of Shannon’s phone ringing woke me up. I leaned over to see the clock said 7 a.m. Rolling back over with my back facing Shannon, I wondered who could be calling this early. Shannon, still half asleep, answered the phone. He immediately perked up when he heard the person on the other end of the line. I couldn’t help but wonder who he was making...
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Jared’s POV
Parking in the corner of the park, I climbed out and jumped onto the hood of my truck. I laid back as I watched the sun set over the buildings downtown. I tried to clear my mind and push the news that she just told me aside but I couldn’t shut my mind off. I wasn’t ready to be a dad. The only father figure I had in my life was a family friend that hung out with...
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I know the 2-minute time frame for the results of the test had done passed. I just couldn’t make myself go in there to see what it said. As I waited, my thoughts overcame me. How could this have happened? We were always safe. I was even on the pill. Then, I remembered, the night of Paige’s birthday, Jared didn’t use any protection. We were both careless but, all I could do...
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A couple of weeks had passed and since that night, Shannon and I haven’t spent a day, or night, apart. I woke up every morning with his arms wrapped around me. I dreaded the days when I had to go to work, but he had work to do too. While I was working he would send me sweet texts to let me know he was thinking about me and some that “showed” me what he was thinking of. We...
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I was almost running behind Jared as he pulled me by my hand out of the club. I was almost afraid of what he planned to do with me. When we finally made it to the dark corner where his truck was parked he slammed me up against the passenger door and picked me up and dug his fingers into the backside of my thighs. Pressing up against me, with my legs wrapped around his waist, I could feel...
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When I seen him sitting at the end of the table my heart sank into my chest. I wanted to be angry with him for not calling or texting me this past week but I couldn’t. He didn’t owe me anything, I was just being selfish. When I seen him I should’ve ran the opposite way, but I just couldn’t move.
As he inched closer to me his tongue darted across his lips as he reached...
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Maria’s POV Part 2
His scent was purely intoxicating; I wanted it all over me like it had been so many times before. If this was a goodbye, I definitely was going to relish every second of it. It started out so intensely, the way we looked at each other, the way he kissed me. The desire was incomparable; as we hadn’t touched each other since the day they left for those last few dates...
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A week had passed by since the incident with Paige and Jared. Absolutely nothing had changed between Paige and I. I was upset but she quickly explained everything to me the night I came home from New York. I was going to stay in a hotel because I just wanted to be by myself, but Shannon persuaded me to make things right with my best friend. As she told me everything that happened I...
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As I sat looking out the window of our living room I realized Jana would be coming home today from New York. My stomach turned at the thought. The entire day I had gone over, in my mind, the explanation I was going to give her about what happened. I had no idea if Jared had already told her. Shannon could’ve called her out of anger. My thoughts were everywhere.
I couldn’t bring...
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Desperately looking through the crowd of people I searched for his face. Having no luck I decided to call his cell to see where he was at in the airport. I told him the exact time my flight landed so I knew he was here somewhere. Without even a hello he answered “just keep walking straight I see you.” As I kept walking I felt a smile appear on my face as I seen him standing in...
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Maria’s POV
I was out for cocktails with my best friends, trying to have a good night, trying to NOT think about him! Chloe and Rachael convinced me that after 3 weeks of sulking and lying around my apartment in my pajamas that it was time to go out for a night. My band had just gotten signed with his help, and they told me it was time to celebrate and move on. I put on a black...
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I drove around trying to clear my head from the situation that happened back at the house. It seemed every time I thought about it I started crying. I had to pull over to gain control of my tears several times. After about an hour of driving around I decided to head back home. I purposely took the long way back to avoid passing the Leto house. I turned the engine off and just thought to myself...
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